Surgery Time Anxiety

  

I've been running around getting prepared for my surgery and time has seemed to be on crack.  I am excited for the ultimate outcome/goal of the surgery and I'm prayed up and ready to go.  Nonetheless, I'm human and nervous and I've had a hard time sleeping for the past week. 



For those that do not know, I have pansinusitis and I'm having bilateral sinus surgery tomorrow morning to correct it.  I started having issues about 4 years ago.  I kept being admitted to the hospital for asthma issues.  So for about 2 years I was treated strictly for asthma and doctors were focusing on getting my asthma under control.  Turns out they were focusing in the wrong area and the root cause was the sinus issues.  The blockags cause frequesnt infections and the post nasal drip causes breathing difficulties.  For someone with asthma, it was just a double whammy.  Anyway I went through one awful ENT who had me on antibiotics for over a year and finally found the one that will be performing my surgery tomorrow.  I've heard amazing things about him.  He's been doing this for 26 years so...

I'll be off work for a few weeks recovering.  I hope I don't go stir crazy.  There are 50 million thoughs running through my mind.  I know that there are more serious surgeries done every day, and some may think me to be ridiculous for the amount of nerve issues I have right now, but it doesn't change the fact so whatever I guess lol. 

I have to stay focused.  Lord I trust you and know that I am healed and all is well.  I am not perfect in anyway so please forgive me for the anxiety that is running through my body right now.  I know that I am your child and in your hands.  Thank you Lord for the victory.  Amen!

Tomorrow morning at 7am I'll be preparing to go under the scope.  I'll be at the hospital at 5am.  I don't know how much sleep I'll get tonight, but I suppose that doesn't really matter does it?  I feel reallty bad for 'M', he's been staying up with me for the past few nights and trying to be a comfort.  I really appreciate him. 

I have a list of stuff to get for pre op preperation.  I'm trying to dust and get everything ready for my return home after surgery.  Hypo allergenic stuff.  Since I'll be unblocked, I will be way more sensitive to my allergens and need to get what I can under control.  I will start allergy shots about 3 weeks after surgery to maintain control of that stuff.  I'll blog more after the surgery when I'm up to it.  :)