Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Breast Cancer Awareness: A Family story "God wanted her more"

It has been such a blessing to me to talk to others and get feedback about cancer awareness. I personally, have taken a lot of time to reflect on myself and my life, as I know it. I appreciate so much more in life and love people for who they are...
"You taught me everything Everything you've given me I'll always keep it inside You're the driving force in my life, yeah
There isn't anything Or anyone that I could be And it just wouldn't feel right If I didn't have you by my side
You were there for me to love and care for me When skies were gray Whenever I was down You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be What you have been to me you will always be You will always be the girl In my life for all times
Mama, Mama you know I love you Mama, Mama you're the queen of my heart Your love is like tears from the stars Mama I just want you to know lovin' you is like food to my soul Yes it is, yes it is, oh, yes it is, yes it is, yes it is oh
You're always there for me Have always been around for me even when I was bad You showed me right from my wrong Yes you did
And you took up for me When everyone was downin' me You always did understand You gave me strength to go on
There was so many times Looking back when I was so afraid And then you come to me and say to me I can face anything
And no one else can do What you have done for me You'll always be, you will always be The girl in my life, ooh oh
Mama, Mama you know I love you Mama, Mama you're the queen of my heart Your love is like tears from the stars Mama I just want you to know lovin' you is like food to my soul
Never gonna go a day without you Fills me up just thinkin' about you I'll never go a day Without my mama Mama, Mama you know I love you Mama, Mama you're the queen of my heart Your love is like tears from the stars Mama I just want you to know lovin' you is like food to my soul
Lovin' you is like food to my soul, oh yeah You are the food to my soul, yes you are" - A Song for Mama by Boyz II Men

This song came to mind as I was thinking about a friend an co-worker of mine.  She sent an email in response to the story I posted on Laureen Meagher. She shared a story about her an her sisters. After I finished crying I asked her if I could share it with my readers. In the transportation industry, you tend to meet a lot of people via email and phone and become friends. Sometimes you go your entire career never meeting the folks on the other end of the computer or receiver. I did, however, have the pleasure of finally meeting Ms. Nicole after a year or so of trading emails. She has such a maternal spirit and a familiar soul about her. She has been like a sister to me since I met her and I'm so honored that she is allowing me to share her story.
To you, Nicole, and your sisters: You are all an extension of your mother and her love. I admire each of your for what you have been through and the sorrow that you muscled through to continue on. It never gets easy, saying goodbye or reliving the pain. It does however, become a little easier to understand as time goes on. Remember that Earth has no sorrow that Heaven cannot heal. You may have lost a wonderful woman in the flesh, but she lives in you through the Angel that Heaven gained. God Bless you all!
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This weekend my sister and I were on the internet and we came across a blog that Shanita Posted
Wow (Laureen)...how your story truly inspired my sisters and I.  I knew you were a cancer survivor but I never knew your story in detail...you are one amazing woman to say the least!
I wanted to share a little story about myself:
When I was 15 years old, my mother passed of cancer; she was 42 years old.  Although I know the cancer started in the lymph nodes under her arm, but, a lot of details were kept from me being that I was the youngest child.  I often asked my sisters "Why couldn’t the doctors help her?" "Why couldn't she be strong enough to beat it?"  And for many years after her passing I was bitter because I felt so cheated.  But with the guidance of my sisters I learned to accept what I could not change.  As I read your story, I cried and I said to my sister "Why couldn’t our mother have your strength, your courage, and perseverance, your good doctors?"
My sister turned to me and she said "Nicole she tried, God wanted her more, and when you read stories such as Laureen's; smile and say that’s for you MOM!"   
(Laureen) I truly appreciate you, your story and your strength
You are an inspiration to families that has lost a loved one to this disease and an inspiration to those who continue to fight it!
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Nicole...you and your family are an inspiration as well.  You show the raw emotion and let people know its okay to continue grieving as long as you continue living life the way your loved ones would want you to. 


  1. This made me cry! I am glad you wrote this post!


    1. You're not alone...I cried through typing it out. Thank you so much! =)

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